CoR: Heart Chart - Ilkaner (Updated, January 2015)

EDITED - JANUARY 2014. I STILL need to add Nikita, but it's almost 4am and I have no idea wh I'm still awake and thus I'm too nerp to extend the meme and add anoher headshot--. But she's gonna be there at some point! xDD

Just look for the -symbols to see if there's anything new!

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HEART CHARTS. You know what that means? Internal monologues about everyone else's charries ala Ilka! < u > You know I love to write these. xD Would do ones for Kaiko and Tai too but... Since they've only met one character in the group each. :'D Gonna wait 'till they meet more peeps!

But now.. Since Ilka's met a fair deal of people.. Time for his heart chart! (I'll need an extension soon!) And as per usual, tiny chibi headshots for everyone. vuv Have I ever even done a heart chart outside of PKMC..? I can't remember but ANYWAYS. Characters in about the order in which Ilka met them. Not suuure if I got the order right but close enough!

Also. Heart-posed armour hands. HNNNNGH. Were those a pain! And you can hardly make out the pose anyways. :'D Oh weeeeell. Silly poses FTW! Just like in Lulla's old chart. ;u; Totally making this a habit on heart charts, SO CUTE! Also.. His steel typing still isn't too visible here. It's more something you see on Illwos because armour covers everything. But he HAS gotten a kinda of armour upgrade since and I really need to redraw his app for that reason when I have more energy. :'D (Some new things, added armour on upper arms, new vambraces and slightly less annoying-to-draw finger armour.)

_{And yes. This is part of the reason I didn't reply to any RPs over the weekend. And another reason was that I was feeling pretty cruddy after the exam anyways. Cruddy as in.. Dizzy and whatnot. Too much heat and sunlight for one day! I swear I was so close to getting heat exhaustion there. :'D}

~~The general colour-code:~~ 

Black = Hate:
_{A really difficult title to get from Ilka. You know how ready he is to forgive people for ANYTHING! Really, anything! But if he hates someone, he would rather act like that person doesn't exist because you know he's supposed to not show negative emotions! But.. A person in this category.. would make that quite difficult..}

Gray = Dislike:
_{The borderline between Upset and Hate. It still can be fixed.. Maybe. If you really try and apologize for whatever you did, or if he hears something good about you that might turn his head. Still a hard title to gain, but much easier to lose than Hate.}

Light Blue = Fear:
_{As I have said in the past, Ilka really isn't afraid of pain or dying. He's more afraid of losing someone he cares for or being hated by someone. He wants to be liked! Or... Then he might be afraid of someone who acts 'too friendly with him, if you know what I mean. :'D Yes, his fear isn't of the type where he fears of being killed, it's the fear of being hated or... molested.}

Dark Blue = Upset:
_{Most commonly this would be your status if you trash-talk Kain when Ilka is near. Or mock a close friend of his. It can either be something that makes Ilka not want to talk to the person at all - and make him feel really sad in private, this would be a full mark in the chart - or something milder where he just.. Feels sad and disappointed the person would do something like that, which would be a transparent mark on the chart.} 

Yellow = Acquaintance: 
_{This is where you are if you have met Ilka. It's not so much about how many times you've met him, but rather about the things you talked about and how well Ilka feels he knows you. Does he know what you like? Does he know something about your background or aspirations? If no, then he'd prolly see you as an acquaintance. Some people actually skip this level completely! Ilka just is that easy to befriend.}

Light Green = Friend: 
_{I dunno if I've said it before, but Ilka warms up to people REALLY quickly. And he's quick to dub them his friends. After all, he'd rather call someone their friend and hear they don't return that feeling than say they're not his friend and hear that person thought of him as a friend! He'd feel so terrible.. And so this level is truly easy to reach.} 

Dark Green = Close Friend:
_{Not too hard to reach a level this one either, but it would take a bit more... personal an approach. He need to not only know about you as a person, but have shared some warm moments with you. Maybe you cheered him up when he was feeling down? Or othervise showed you care about him on some level too. This is where he believes he can trust his life in your hands. He likely won't talk about his worries or anything unless they're directly related to you, but he feels he can trust you anyways. And this is the level where he would be willing to give you a hug without it being to comfort but rather for just the fun of it! (But he likely won't unless you ask for it, he doesn't want to come off as creepy!)
(Also, this is the level where he can take his helmet off IF and only IF you have somehow seen his face before. If you haven't, then you need to reach the next level or have him reveal his face out of dire need.)}

Purple = Best friend:
_{This is a bit more tricky a level to reach.. To put it into contrast, this is where he'd pretty much see you as a family member without an actual blood-link. This is where he would finally dare to reveal his face to you without any awkwardness if you've never gotten to see it before. Of course, not in public, but if you're alone somewhere, then he might. Some other things you might see when reaching this level.. He would purr out loud when happy instead of trying to hide it, he would happily give you all the hugs in the universe unless he knows you don't like that and... he might even offer to brush your hair for you (Kinda like how animals groom each other, you know? It's a thing among his people.. Considering showing hair really is a taboo among them. Grooming it is a deep showing of appreciation. :'D)}

Orange = Respect:
_{Ilka has a certain level or respect for all Deities by default, but Kain is the one whose level no one else will probably ever reach. After all, Kain is his god and saviour! You really can't earn respect higher than that from Ilka. Kain is the only one who could make Ilka do pretty much anything if he'd only ask.. But even a mere mortal can gain a certain level of respect from Ilka! His parents, uncle and the priests and elder Paladins all have their share of respect from Ilka. And if you prove yourself to be not only worth Ilka's trust on an emotional level, but on strategic as well.. Ilka might just be willing to do what you ask or tell him to without questions. Though never quite to the extend he would if the person was Kain!}

Pink = Crush:
_{This one hardly needs any explaining.. But I shall anyways. First of all.. Those who have seen my OC Spectrum Meme already know, but Ilka is not only very-much asexual but also demiromantic. He's really easy to befriend but getting some deeper emotions to bloom is much more tricky. You need to get the purple heart on this chart before you'd even have real chance of him maybe wanting to have you as his sweetheart. And truly.. Appearance isn't really going to get you far and trying to show him a-bit-more-than-friendly affection without him really feeling for you will only earn you a Light Blue heart and a step down on the friend-o-meter. This is.. Where he sees you as family - as the purple heart would suggest - but starts to act a bit odd; longing gazes, feline tail-quivers and just overall zone-outs. But it's more than likely he himself doesn't even realize these feelings himself until someone else points out his weird behaviour - maybe the target, maybe someone else, maybe even Illwos. And when he does realise.. Ohh, the awkward sweetness. :'D}

Red = Love:
_{And you prolly know what this one is too buuut. :U Yes. After he's actually confessed his feelings AND found out the feelings are shared.. Yeah, this is where it would lead. First a bit lighter a mark, but it would turn solid with a bit more time. If you reach this level, his feelings just won't fade anymore unless you yourself would leave him and even then it would take him a long time for him to get over it. Ilka is a bit like a swan in these regards.. If he loses his partner to death, he'd never want a new one, just wait and hope they'd be reunited on the other side. That's what he'd say and you can be sure it's true. o^o Oh.. And also.. Yeah. He's not really seeking a 'lover' but rather a 'companion'. < u >}


~~Character-specific feelings:~~

C the Drifblim:
"Ahh, Sii, she's the first person whom I met after leaving the Silver Mountains for the first time. She's very helpful and has saved my tail quite a few times, even more than I've had a chance to save hers. Though she is a bit timid which can be a bit unsettling.. I just gotta be careful with what I do; I really, REALLY don't want to have her end up fearing me! She's just one of those people you really want to protect from all the bad in the world, ha~. ... I just hope she's fine... Traveling alone and all... I honestly tend to be a bit worried over her.. But guess she'll manage, especially now that it's summer and warm! 
I really like chatting with her whenever I can, though~. She just has this way of putting me at ease. _{Or then it's just the fact I don't need to worry over her well-being when she's around. Who knows.}" *Purposefully avoids the topic of C being a ghost now, stick to the nice stuff!*
(July 2014) "Though putting all that worrying aside now, what do I really think of her.. Well, she's very nice to have around! When we last met she was so cheery even after losing the battle tournament and it was so nice chatting with her on that field, making flower crowns again and all that friendly stuff~. I have a feeling she's not too wary of me anymore either, she acted so relaxed and even let me hug her for good bye! There just was something so sweet about hearing the glee in her voice and seeing her with the flowers on her head, she seemed so happy! That's a memory I really will cherish for a long time. It was all just so.. so cute, if you don't mind me saying.. *Sighs deeply* I love seeing people, especially friends, so happy.. ;u;
(November, 2014) "Ah, asking about Sii again, are we? Well, not much has changed, really. She's the same sweet and helpful friend as before~. She has... really helped me a lot lately. First in taking care of that abandoned kitten I found, then reassured me after I had done that terrible thing to Brenton's king, and... just a while ago helped me cope with Brenton having died... *Slowly wraps his arms around himself as he tries to figure out what to say, there are so many things he wants to mention* She's a surprisingly tough girl too. I... really am impressed by how calm she was when she had to treat Brenton's injured wings while I myself didn't even dear to look at them. And how calm she was when I was upset... I find that really admirable.. Ah.. And... It's always so nice to talk to her face-to-face, without my helmet, it feels so much more open! *Sighs deeply* It's only been a moment and I miss her already... I wonder why..." ((Bulbie's comment: WHOOPS. Not much has changed indeed. At least Ilka hasn't realized anything.))
(New Year, 2014-2015) "I... am not sure what to say... How do I feel about her..? She is... a very dear friend of mine. More dear than she should be... I know how I feel, but I fear it's not right... After all, she is... a ghost... and I'm a mortal. A mortal with deep faith in a life beyond this one... My fate is there and hers is here. And I don't want to have her feel feel of me like I feel of her now. I don't want to break her heart by having her watch me grow old and leave this world while she would have to stay here... I do want to be her friend though..! That's why I asked her to the New Year's dance. I didn't want her to think that I didn't have fun last time so of course I had to ask her to join me..! There is nothing odd about people going to a dance as friends. But I still... It was so nice... And I feel terrible for liking her this much. It's just not right! Why can't these feelings just go away!?" ((Bulbie's comment: Aaaand there we have it-. He finally realized how he feels. Noticed it on the night of the Candle Festival and then he had to struggle with a mixture of bliss and guilt as he tried to figure out whether he should take her to the dance again or if he should risk giving the impression that he dislikes her company and just not ask her. Well, needless to say, he did. And that dance just deepened his feelings... But which way will it go? Will he give in to his feelings and just tell her? Or will he suppress it until the feeling goes away... If it goes away at all. We shall see?))


Malcolm the Sunflora
"I've seen Mal around a few times, yes! Though.. Not since the New Year's dance. He seems like a nice and helpful man but I honestly don't know that much about him as a person.. But from what I know, he seems to have his heart in the right place~. At least judging from the fact he did help me that one time.. And invited me and Sii to that party in the first place."
(July 2014) "I still haven't had the chance to get to know him well, but I did get to see a bit of his family after the Battle Tournament! I really feel bad for taking him down so quickly.. I really had no idea Play Rough might hurt him so badly-. Bute he does have a really sweet niece! I hope she'll grow up to be a good person too~."

Amalthea the Yamask
"Oh.. Amalthea.. Yes, I do know her kind of. I've not seen her our first meeting though.. Well, we had a bit of an incident and I think I at least left a staying impression, ahhaa, for.. not exactly flattering reasons. I have this awkward feeling that she thinks I'm not only a horribly clumsy idiot, but also a... "*Rubs his forehead - or visor - with his left hand* "... pervert.. Um.. Not exactly a flattering image. No.. And it-, it's not even true! I really didn't mean to look! I really was just tired and not thinking straight..! _{I'm not even into things like that! Sheesh.. I wish there was a way to prove I really didn't mean any harm..} ... Uhm.. Her Familiar is really nice though! Io is a real pleasure to chat with!" *Casually switches topic and smiles awkwardly*

Echo the Vespiquen
"Erm.. Yeah, Echo is a bit of a tricky person to talk about.. In a way I KNOW she's a good person who just has had a pretty rough life.. But at the same time she has been so, so hurful in what she's done and said _{even about Lord Kain! I really can't just shrug that off..} I really want to be her friend and somehow convince her not all knights - even the older ones - are not evil and corrupted. People make mistakes and you shouldn't punish them for the errors of the past, I just hope she'd have it in her heart to forgive those who wronged her family.. Though Brenton did say.. They were taken down for a good reason.. I'm not even sure if that would make Echo feel any better is she knew.. 
... But I do want to be a friend to her. Even if I guess I'm a bit hurt by what she said.. I want to see her as a friend but I'm not sure if she feels the same about me." *Gives a deep sigh*
(November 2014) "... I have no idea what to think of her anymore. What she did to Brenton... How cruel she was to him... S-she didn't think it was enough to just take his life, she really felt the need to torture him like that..? I thought she wouldn't be like that... I really thought she could change and forgive... Could it be that I really was so wrong about her..? Well. Either way. I wasn't able to stop her but neither was she able to truly end Brenton. I think I should just stay away from her... I am just... disappointed.."

Darin the Aegislash  
"I've only met him a couple of times before but I know he's a good person. Like Echo, he's just gone through some hard times even if in a different way from her. He may be a thief but I know he has his reasons and I'm going to respect that. Though.. I still wish he could do something to make it up to the people he steals from.. ... But I really am in no spot to judge him for trying to keep himself and his family alive. I simply will do my best to help whenever I happen to meet him, bet it in the form of paying for whatever he stole for him or helping him get back home safely." 
November 2014: "I met him again a while ago! And he was... not really feeling too well. Turned out the ghosts returning really had brought back painful memories for him. I never knew he would have had to see people die before his very eyes, that Oletul truly is in such a terrible state... But at the same time, knowing he was there for those dying people and he tries so hard to help Oletul, I feel like he truly is a good person who genuinely cares for his people. That is a truly respectable goal. I don't know how much he truly is capable of changing alone, but how hard he tries is truly respectable! I really wish there was more I could do to help that city too... But there is only so-much one paladin can do... Or even my entire church... We're not many enough..." *Gives a deep sigh, casting down his gaze* "But I can do my best to help Darin at least..! I may not see him that often, but I am determined to help him in any way I can!" ((Bulbie's comment: Yep! Darin's devotion for Oletul did indeed earn him a faint heart of respect! It's not the strategic kind of respect that Brenton has, but rather a respect of his ideals. Thus it might just be easier for Darin to affect Ilka's way of thinking about some things... A man with such a noble goal can't be too badly wrong, can he?))

Brenton the Umbreon
"Oh man, Sir Rayburn.. He's also a good man who has gone through a lot of crazy stuff. Most of the time when I've met him we've been in some kind of a battle against a common opponent and I've learned to trust his judgement in combat. If he has a plan, I really have no trouble playing along with it and I know he will explain once the time is right. Though what he told me.. I'm so worried over his and his family's well-being. I try not to show it but.. I really am. To know he's the one responsible for Echo's parents'.. I have no idea if I can convince Echo to forgive him. It's so terrifying to know someone you want to be friends with is blood-enemies with your friend. And then there is that Gavin-person too.. I just hope he won't get himself killed, he's surely gotten close in the past."
"A while back I actually got to see a completely different side of him though. I knew that deep down he could be just as fun and playful as anyone else and I finally had a chance to see that! It did take a kind of 'surprise attack' to get out, but I'm so glad he didn't just clam-up and get angry with me~. That was the most fun I had had for a while~! And he seemed to enjoy a little playful fight too! I wasn't expecting anyone from outside my church to bring out the playful kitten in me either. *Chuckles* Though I hope he will be able to keep his rage in check. But if he won't.. I hope I'll be able to keep him from being consumed by it... (He may not realize it himself, but the play-fight really did earn some trust for Brenton too! Just seeing that warm side of the Umbreon and hearing him laugh.. Yeah, guess hearing him laugh had a similar effect as Ilka showing his face; he can now see the caring man under the cold exterior of a knight. ;u; )
(November 2014) "We truly did have quite an ugly spat a month ago and I really was worried that I had ruined the friendship between Brenton and myself with my actions... And lord, was I shocked to find his dead body..! I-I can't even say--. It felt so terrible to think he had gone without knowing how truly sorry I was for what I did to his king... And then... Sii and I found him there riding Founo, so disoriented. In a way it's horrible to know he would be stuck in this world like Sii is... He had faith in heaven, so why is he still here..? But on another hand I'm relieved he's still around to look after his family. And I got the chance to let him know I was sorry... I just wonder how he feels about this all... And Elouise too.."

Faiga the Eevee
"Oh, the young miss who helped us with the poison monster in the woods, yes, I do remember. Though I can't say I know her too well either. She seems like a good girl, though a bit reckless. Who am I to say that though. I really.. Can't say much about her, never really had a chance to talk to her much. ANd we'll see if I ever will. Would it be weird for a guy my age to befriend a child? _{Back home it's not but.. We are pretty much family there.}"

Gavin the Torterra
"_{I've never met this man, but Sir Rayburn has told me something about him.. I just can't understand how someone could do something so terrible to someone as harmless and sweet as Sii..? I want to say he is sick in his head somehow and needs help.. But somehow.. What Sir Rayburn has told me makes me doubt that. But I still just don't understand.. I really want to know why he did that! Sir Rayburn told me to steer clear of this Gavin-person, but if I ever do meet a person fitting his description.. Hm.. I really do want to know..}"
"Now that I actually met this person, well.. I must say he confuses me. One moment calm and the next full of anger, at least so it seemed when we fought at the tournament.  Not to mention I still am upset about what he did to Sii and Brenton.. Ugh.. And the way he seemed to enjoy the idea of causing unnecessary pain.. I would rather not even think about it.. Though I must admit... The way he spoke.. It was pretty fascinating. I feel like he knows something I don't, at least about the way people's bodies work.. Though it's impossible to tell if he simply made all that up to seem smarter than he is."
(November 2014) "I heard he was also there when Echo took down Brenton... Nothing new for me to know he wants Brenton dead, I guess... *Just sighs* I would say I'm disappointed in him too, but I honestly didn't expect anything good to come from him anyways..."

~~NPCs and people he's not really met IRL~~

Emerentius the Giratina
"Sir Rayburn respects him greatly, from what I've seen maybe as much as I respect Lord Kain! And as surprised as I was to hear the fallen king of Ethus was alive.. I really can't say much about Emerentius. We fought as allies that one time and he helped both me and Sir Rayburn get help afterwards. I kinda would like to know him better.. He IS a major historical character after all! I'd really love to hear what he's seen in his life."
(November 2014) "Uhm... _{I'm sorry.. So sorry... I didn't mean to...}"

Phaedra the Xerneas  
"Phaedra was the one Emerentius sent us to see after that battle and we stayed quite a long while there, just recovering from our wounds. She's really nice! At first I was shocked to be thrown face-to-face with an actual Deity, but she turned out to be just like anyone else. She's so modest and easy to be around, most of the time I don't even think she's a Deity! And I think that's how she likes it. Though I still wouldn't think twice if she'd need my help in something."

Kain the Lugia
"... I really don't need to explain my relations ship with Lord Kain, do I? hahaa~. But yes.. Lord Kain is who I was raised to praise as my saviour all my life and just last spring I even got to see him in person! To actually talk to him! And in a way.. He turned out to be a bit similar to Phaedra in the sense he didn't really want me to call him by his full title. Unexpected, but nice! And he behaves othervise exactly as my people strive to behave.. Calm but cheery even in the heart of battle. You can't even imagine how good it felt to see that! But really, if my Lord would ever ask me to do something, ANYTHING, I would gladly do it for him!" 


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HOLY MOTHER OF COOKIES ALL THAT TEXT. That is all. For now.

For:
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